Our guide, Bible teacher Ray Vander Laan, took us to a hill where we watched sheep
graze under the careful eye of their shepherd. I asked why the shepherd was tending his
sheep on a hillside without grass.
Everywhere I turned, it seemed brown and rocky. “Look under the rocks,” he encouraged me. “The dew from the morning gets caught under them, and there are small grass clumps that grow. See how the shepherd is walking among his sheep? They know his voice, and he’s pointing out to them where the grass is found.”
I located the thickest tuft of grass, and it was still smaller than a human fist. Do you know
how long it takes to bite, chew, and swallow a small tuft of grass? From our observation,
about the time it takes to go three or four steps. Then the sheep has to listen for where he
can find the next bite.
I started to think about Psalm 23, and our guide pulled out his Bible. As we talked about
the imagery for this passage, we agreed our idea of being led to green pastures conjured
up images of waist-high grass, careening in a gentle wind, as far as the eye could see. But
my picture of a field of grass represented my total independence. I could eat however
much I wanted, whenever I wanted, wherever I wanted. I could tell God thanks
beforehand, but all other factors were in my control.
David, however, was on hillsides like this rocky one when he penned those words. His
idea of God’s leading us to a green pasture places us in a posture of dependence, looking
more like what I was watching that afternoon. God’s way puts me in a position where he
might provide only what will sustain me for the next three or four steps. Then, dependent
on him for more, I stay on the path within earshot and listen for his leading so I’ll find
what I need. Listen. Bite. Step. Repeat.
Today, amen is most often our sign-off to a prayer or a testimony of agreement, but it
was designed to be so much more. Its intent is to describe a spiritual position before God.
Nehemiah explains it as:
Ezra praised the Lord, the great God; and all the people lifted their hands and responded, ‘Amen! Amen!’ Then they bowed down and worshiped the Lord with their faces to the ground(Neh. 8:6).
This is amen: hands raised, faces bowed, hearts at peace. There our metaphorical spiritual
buckets get filled, and there is plenty to offer each other. Unity is felt among the church,
and communion is a reality. Here, in this posture, I am always sur- prised by what God
has for me.
If I could pray no other word ever again, I would be okay. Amen speaks affirmation and
commitment. It says yes to a life- style where he is to be trusted and I can rest in him.
When I talk to God, I start with amen, and, with it, we communicate intimacy and a sense
I know He’s got this. He knows I’m letting him have this, whatever in the moment “this” may be.As amen permeated my life and prayers, I noticed a new- found confidence in my faith.
I woke up one day along my journey and sensed a fresh boldness in my faith. It wasn’t a
result of new head knowledge or better self-discipline. It was simply a longing for
miracles and revival; I wanted to see God be God. I developed a craving for intimacy with him. This idea of amen, or surrender and submission, opened doors of restoration in
my relationships—and in my soul.